I walked along a winding path
one starry, full moon night
to a place I could not be certain of.
Why I walked isn’t clear to me anymore
nor is why you came
but with each precarious step
reason and logic subsided
as earth’s energy glided up my feet,
regenerating cells along the way;
aligning my will to be connected to the source of my everything.
Not knowing where I was going, I’m surprised I knew when I arrived
but my stopping feet and now seeing eyes
unblocked my ears to your call
till, still and grounded, I heard you touch the hairs at my neck’s back;
saw you listen to my inhale exhaling your inhale;
tasted the comfort of your enveloping everywhere-ness;
your confirmation breezing through the air.
You wanted total connection, which required loss of my power
yet so quiet your insistence,
so firm your “I won’t force you”,
fear melted through the wet of my armpits.
My lead now on pause,
eyes closed in expectation,
head blazed at your approach;
willfully, I breathed in the essence of you
as you stepped into your control.
I watched like a spectator
as you took over this vehicle we shared;
seeing and knowing yet not commanding or guiding;
I was only a passenger here.
You turned left when I thought a right would come;
jumped high touching earth in a whirl.
So pervasive your presence,
so diminished my own
felt like I almost wasn’t there.
Until the moment you decided
this was enough or now.
Vehicle in park, we both very still
one breath in separation’s fight.
Slowly from one pant came two
as you whispered “its time to go”.
Reluctantly, I climbed back to the front seat
watching our disconnection increase.
Now I could see where I ended and you began
and could again find me in time and space.
I breathed in awe, exhaled my “akpe”
smiling, knowing, holding gratitude’s embrace.
© May 2016